S brought up the subject of blogs, which prompted me to re-read his blog. I remember my ridiculous and cryptic posts, which were essentially emotional dribble with loads and loads of metaphors and aliases (to obscure the persons I was referencing).
They were so bad and cringeworthy that I deleted them all on impulse. Multiple times. They were awful, and I was consistent. Also I had these massive personality and philosophical swings (S called them phases) that made me want to restart my blog each time. My last phase change was in 2010. The one before that was in 2008. The math point to this blog self-destructing this year, which I really hope will not happen because I'm getting a little too old for this sort of stuff.
Right now I'm listening to some of my favourite songs of ages past (e.g. Mandy Moore, Avril Lavigne), and after meeting S and B it feels like this is a good place to start my blog again. There's a kind of continuation. Like a television series that got picked up again after a few years and is starting the new season with the original theme songs and characters.
I had racked my head trying to think of a direction for this blog. I decided that I'd just do it my usual way.